Fair Warning

I like coming here and being able to write how I feel, it's good to have a place where I can say what I think without editing.

However...

I've recently become aware that there are people who read this blog about whom I have written negative things. I try very hard not to let that influence me. I don't want to say something harsh because I know they are reading it, neither do I want to sugar coat the way I see.

It takes twice as long to write a post because I'm always checking with myself to make sure what I'm writing is what I mean. I do this anyway on a subconscious level but to bring it to the front of my brain is like having an angel on one shoulder and a devil on the other.

"Oh dear, I shouldn't write that, why that might hurt BLANK's feelings."

"Who cares about BLANK's feeling, he/she is an unthinking jerk - let's tear him/her a new one!"

I sit between them wonder how I really feel. I have pulled punches and I have sucker punched and I hate doing either. Here's the thing, I'm going to get some angel repellent and write what I think and feel. If anyone doesn't like that, then don't come here anymore.