Insanity Update

Today I called the friend who I first stayed with when I came to Maine. I had left some things behind and wanted to know when I could come and get them. I was told that his partner would bring them over.

“We read your blog,” he told me. I said something along the lines of “Okay.” Or “Uh-ah.” He then says, “I didn’t know you were that sick.”

I started to remind him that I told him before I made the move how sick I was and that I had re-reminded him when we had the argument in the kitchen but he interrupted me to say, “I didn’t realize how sick you were.”

There was other part of the conversation in which I asked if I was going to be invited back and was told, No and when I asked his partner if we were still friends there was a silence that told me more than the first No did.

Now that a few hours have past I wonder if he was commenting on what I said here or my perception of what happened. He didn’t seem to want to talk to me and refused to clarify what he meant by “how sick” I was. It seems ironic that he's calling me delusional.

Maybe I’m wrong in thinking that he isn’t true to his word, maybe he doesn’t remember saying things or doing things. I know what was said to me, I know what promises he made to me and I most certainly know what I told him before I came here.

He kept saying that he was afraid that he would lose me as a friend, seems to me that he didn’t so much lose me as throw me away.

I wonder if he realizes how sick he is.

Moist blog: 9/28/06 9:29pm.