Rain

It's been raining and grey for the last few days and I'm over it. I am in the dumps anyway so this weather doesn't help. I need to get into some therapy, and check my meds, I ache all the time. I can't remember what it feels like to be happy. Heart ache and dizziness all the time. I'm good at appearing okay while feeling rotten, I can laugh without it touching my soul and appear self confident while feeling as small and disgusting as a bug. I don't have the energy to cry.

Welcome June 2007.

Oh, I haven't mentioned it here but Manny, the sweetest cat with the beautiful green eyes, got out and hasn't been seen in over a week.