I'm feeling much better than I did when I last posted.I called my doctor and am now taking twice the amount of happy drugs than I had been and that's helping a lot. But mostly it's because I broke down and talked to the person in whom I so disappointed in. It turns out that the stab in the back was from an unseen third party. Someone whose business had no place in my friendship with A. I'm glad that I talked it out with him. I almost let the back stabbers win. I must remember to trust my intution not what someone says.

Fuck the back stabbers with the butting in noses, fuck them raw.

But not in a good way.